Lindsay Lohan: “Yeah,” I’m An Addict and I Need to “Regain” the Public’s Trust

Lindsay Lohan gave her first post-rehab interview on Sunday’s “Oprah’s Next Chapter,” telling Oprah Winfrey, that “yeah,” she is an addict, and alcohol was her drug of choice.

“That in the past was a gateway to other things for me,” said Lohan, who confessed she’s done cocaine 10 to 15 times.

The starlet explained, “It was like a party thing. People would have it and I would do it.”

Lohan, who insisted she’s never injected anything other than B12, went on to say taking Adderall was another one of her addictions.

But it’s family trouble that the former child star believes kicked off her issues.

“A lot of stuff went on when I was young with my family and I grew up in a very chaotic home…” she told Oprah. “Unfortunately, I waited too long to face it.”

That chaos became “comfortable” and “normal” to the point where Lohan was “addicted” to it, and struggled living a healthy, calm lifestyle — which in turn led to many legal problems and six trips to rehab.

Lohan, who was talking with Oprah four days after her release late last month, said she didn’t take earlier stints in rehab seriously because she had “resentment” about being there, an outlook that landed her in treatment time and again.

After her first DUI, “You would think in that situation, someone would be like ‘Holy sh*t, I need to check myself,” Lohan said, but as an “addict,” she didn’t have that realization.

“It’s the definition of insanity, doing the same thing over and over again,” she acknowledged.

By 2010, when she was sentenced to 90 days in jail, Lohan had a much different attitude

“I somewhere inside knew and kind of wanted to go to jail,” she confessed to the TV personality, admitting, “just to find some peace and have no choice but to just sit and be.”

Released in just weeks due to jail overcrowding, more trouble followed, but Lohan is convinced her recent 90-day stint in rehab was different than ever before.

“I don’t think in the past I ever fully surrendered to the fact that I just needed to shut up and listen. In this case, I wasn’t fighting at all,” she said.

Reflecting on being tabloid fodder for years, Lohan said she “hates” being the symbol for “child star gone wrong,” noting, “It’s not what I ever aspired to be and it’s not what I want for my life.”

But career success was also partially responsible for Lohan’s problems, with the actress admitting she got paid way “too much” at too young of an age, and ended up “wasting” loads of money.

Lohan, who said she’s her “own worst enemy,” told Oprah she believes “there’s nothing that can stand in my way” if she takes what she’s learned the past few months and lives “in the moment.”

“I have to regain the trust of people and my career… and I fully respect that,” she said.

Lohan, who calls herself a “spiritual person,” says she now has an “appreciation” for what she has in her life, and is “tired” of living the way she has for so many years.

She told the former talk show host, “I’ve lived so many lives in one lifetime as this point, and it’s not interesting me to anymore.”

The Mean Girls star went on to say she has “some serious guardian angels” for not injuring herself or anyone else during her wildest of times.

As for her current relationship with her controversial parents, Lohan — who teared up at various points, including talking about her family — said “nobody’s perfect,” and doesn’t believe her family ever exploited her, at least not “intentionally.”

“I hate what a bad rap people give my parents, because they’re just parents, really, at the end of the day,” she said, adding, “I don’t blame anyone for my mistakes.”

Rattling off a list of well-known misdoings, Lohan said, “I did that and I’m not proud of it, and all I can do is keep doing what I’m doing now.”

She vowed to not put herself in certain situations — noting that it’s “open season” for people to judge her if she does — and expressed frustration that it’s “boring” to others if she stays on her path of recovery.

But, Lohan said, that’s exactly what she plans to do.

“I feel whole again,” expressed Lohan, who said she’s off Adderall and all other drugs. ”I have such a desire to want to keep this feeling and stay this way, and I’m willing to do whatever it takes.”

A docu-series about Lohan rebuilding her career and staying sober will air on OWN next year.

Lindsay Lohan’s Oprah Winfrey interview live blog: I’ve done cocaine 10 to 15 times

Lindsay Lohan has led a troubled adulthood, but her recent stint in rehab seems to have set her on the straight and narrow. But is she really better? The one person who is sure to be able to find the answer is Oprah Winfrey, who interviewed Lohan for an “Oprah’s Next Chapter”segment on OWN.

A teaser of the interview shows Oprah leveling some pretty hefty questions at Lohan, but the answers have yet to be revealed — until tonight, that is. The interview airs on OWN at 9 p.m. ET, so join Zap2it as the world find out what Lohan has to say for herself after her three months in rehab. All times Eastern.
 
8:55 p.m. - A teaser for the interview just aired. There’s a lot riding on this for Lindsay.
 
9:00 p.m. - This segment starts with a flashback to LiLo promoting “The Parent Trap,” and shows her downward spiral through to today. It’s sad looking back at how troubled her teens and 20s have been.
 
9:03 p.m. - Lindsay’s intention is to “just be me” and have an open conversation during this interview. She looks poised and clear after four days out of rehab. She says she feels “really good.”
 
9:04 p.m. - Little over a minute in and there are already tears in Lindsay’s eyes. She says she first entered herself into rehab after she tried Ambien. She’s been in rehab six times in total.
 
9:06 p.m. - Lindsay recalls the moment she learned she was going to jail. She says it was “terrifying.”
 
9:08 p.m. - The big revelations start coming. Lindsay admits she subconsciously “kind of wanted to go to jail,” “just to find some peace.” She felt “shame” and “guilt” at having to go to jail.
 
9:10 p.m. - “It’s always such a circus when I go to court. It’s so humiliating,” Lindsay admits. She says it draws focus back to her being a “celebrity who’s troubled.” When it came time for her to go back to rehab this most recent instance, she says she hit a wall, and it helped to “take these three months to really take care of myself, find myself.”
 
9:15 p.m. - Back after a commercial break. Oprah and Lindsay are discussing what rehab means to her. “I think in the past I’ve never really surrendered to the fact I just need to shut up and listen,” Lindsay says. This time, she did. She says she’s “craving spirituality,” whereas in the past she was “guarded” and “in denial.”
 
9:16 p.m. - “All I can do is live in each moment,” Lindsay says. “I don’t have control over tomorrow.”
 
9:17 p.m. - Lindsay says what she’s learned most is how to ground herself, and that she doesn’t need “outside substances” to experience herself. 
 
9:17 p.m. - Lindsay admits she’s an addict, and says alcohol is her drug of choice. She says she’s done cocaine 10 to 15 times, mostly with alcohol. Alcohol is her gateway drug.
 
9:17 p.m. - She did cocaine because “it allowed me to drink more.” Lindsay’s cocaine consumption of choice is snorting it. “I’ve never injected anything other than getting B12 shots,” she says with a laugh.
 
9:18 p.m. - Lindsay says she’s spent the past three months healing so she can be a whole person again. She’s now talking about her troubled childhood with her “chaotic” family.
 
9:19 p.m. - Oprah asks Lindsay if she’s addicted to chaos, and Lindsay says that might be so. She liked the “comfortable chaos,” and it’s hard for her to come to terms with just being okay.
 
9:20 p.m. - So what’s different this time? “Not taking Adderall,” Lindsay says. “That’s a big deal. … I don’t need it.” She’s only on vitamins now, and she says she feels much calmer.
 
9:22 p.m. - “I have to regain the trust of people in my career,” Lindsay says. She thinks she can turn her career around. Here’s the “I’m my own worst enemy” line shown in the teaser.
 
9:26 p.m. - Another commercial break over. Lindsay moved to Los Angeles at age 17 or 18 after “Mean Girls,” and says it was around then that she started spiraling out of control. She didn’t notice then that people were around “for the wrong reasons.”
 
9:28 p.m. - Lindsay wasn’t being guided in her late teens; she was making too much money ($7 million per picture) and spending what she describes as too much money. No one was there to help her learn how to handle things.
 
9:30 p.m. - She ignored her family when they said she should move back to New York when things started to go bad. She says she “didn’t want to face … a lot of things that were going on.” Her first DUI was “scary,” but not a wakeup call. Neither was the time she spent in jail.
 
9:34 p.m. - Hah, there’s a Cliffside Malibu commercial. Well played, Cliffside. Well played.
 
9:35 p.m. - We’re back. Oprah asks Lindsay what’s causing her “disease,” Lindsay says it’s “lack of self-will,” she didn’t want to feel great. Now, she says she “feels whole again.” 
 
9:36 p.m. - “I have such a desire to want to keep this feeling and stay that way, and I’m willing to do whatever it takes,” Lindsay says. “I really want to be on set. That feeds me.”
 
9:37 p.m. - Oprah talking about women who became famous for simply walking the red carpet and have “no talent.” Wonder who she’s talking about …
 
9:39 p.m. - “I’ve always known things about myself. I’ve just chosen to not recognize them and not act on them,” Lindsay says of what she’s learned. “I’ve always been aware of my faults. … I’ve lived so many lives in one lifetime at this point, and it’s not interesting to me anymore.”
 
9:41 p.m. - “Nobody’s perfect. I love my parents,” Lindsay says of her seemingly troubled relationship with her family. She addresses the voicemail her father released where she claimedDina Lohan was on cocaine, which she’s later revealed was a lie.
 

“She wasn’t out of control. I was more out of control. It was a bad mother/daughter fight,” Lindsay says. “I said a lot of things that were not true that I was saying spitefully. … I was acting out, and I was acting like a crazy person, so I knew what was the one thing that would really trigger her and set her off and hurt her. I wasn’t thinking clearly. … I was really ashamed by that.”

 

She says she wishes people would take the blame of her downward spiral off of her parents, because she blames herself. “I don’t think anything was intentionally done in that way,” Lindsay says. “They’re just parents, really, at the end of the day.”

 
9:49 p.m. - To the people who say Lindsay has already had too many chances, she says, “There’s something to be said about me going forward that if I’m going to put myself in a public situation, that’s open season for people to say whatever they’re going to say. … I can control not putting myself there.”
 
9:50 p.m. - “If people only knew the real parts of the real sides of things and were open to hearing that. Because that’s not interesting,” Lindsay says. “Me really trying to be happy and accepting that I’m happy now, that’s boring. … That’s really frustrating, and I can’t control that. I can control staying on my path of recovery.”
 
9:51 p.m. - Her “path of recovery” is “staying present.”
 
9:56 p.m. - Lindsay talks “The Canyons.” She says she was “grateful” to just be on set for that movie. Apparently the reason she was never on time to sets in the past was because she was “distracted” and didn’t appreciate either her own time or others’ time.
 
9:57 p.m. - Now Oprah is talking about Lindsay’s new OWN docu-series. Oprah is concerned that Lindsay is planning to go to Europe so soon after rehab, and Lindsay says the plan is for her brother to join her on a yoga and meditation retreat. Oprah asks if that’s the best decision for her at that point in time. “I’m different,” Lindsay says. “I feel different. I’m in a different headspace.” She promises she won’t party, because she doesn’t want the things she used to want. Following the interview, Lindsay canceled her trip.
 
10:00 p.m. - Oprah’s final words to Lindsay: “I want you to win.” Maybe she will this time. Lindsay has seen sure of herself in the past after rehab and jail experience, but at least now she seems aware enough of her own problems to maybe come out on top of her addiction. Thanks for joining Zap2it on this live blog!

Lindsay on Chelsea Lately, Oprah Next Chapter & Eastbound & Down Photos Updates

I’ve did some updates of Lindsay Lohan on several TV shows like Chelsea Lately and Oprah Next Chapter o the gallery. Also, there are some new photos of Lindsay on the set of her upcoming cameo role in HBO series, Eastbound & Down! Enjoy the photos!

Chelsea Lately > Behind The Scenes – August 5, 2013

Talk Shows > Oprah Next Chapter > Stills – August 18, 2013

Eastbound & Down > On The Set

Lindsay Lohan thanks fans for support given while in rehab

Lindsay Lohan is thanking her fans for their support while she was in rehab.

‘The Canyons’ star has launched a new website since completing 90 days of court-ordered treatment at the Cliffside Malibu centre in California. She finished the program on July 31, and is eager to get her life back on track.

She wrote: “To my fans, Welcome to my new site… Your support has been everything. I’m so excited for what’s next. xo All my love, Lindsay.”

The 27-year-old actress went to rehab as part of a plea deal to avoid jail after violating her probation by lying to police about driving after a car accident last year, and she has since appeared eager to take responsibility for her problems and legal troubles.

In a sneak peak teaser of an interview with Oprah Winfrey she is asked by the talk show legend: “Do you think you can turn things around?” and “What is it that you’re addicted to?”

Lohan emotionally replies: “I’m my own worst enemy. I know that.”

Winfrey, 59, has taken a vested interest in Lohan’s well being following her well-documented troubles, as the actress is now filming a documentary series about her road to recovery for Oprah’s TV channel, OWN.

Shortly after their recent interview, Winfrey insisted that she believes Lohan is ready to move on with her life.

Winfrey previously said: “I just interviewed her, and I was deeply moved by her desire to move forward in her life at this time … I really do believe that she’s ready.”

She also said she felt the ‘Mean Girls’ star was “honest” and “authentic” during their chat, adding: “She looked good. She looked strong. She looked healthy.”

Source: CTV News

Lindsay Lohan to Guest Star on Eastbound & Down

It’s not just returning to TV—it’s HBO!

Lindsay Lohan, who wrote on Instagram yesterday about being back at work without actually specifying what that work entailed, was shooting scenes for Eastbound & Down in Wilmington, N.C.

HBO confirmed Wednesday to E! News that Lohan will be guest-starring on the raunchy sitcom’s upcoming fourth and final season.

“#back@work! So grateful today! :)” she wrote.

A source tells us that Lohan plays the daughter of one of the show’s main characters and was filming a wedding scene set many years in the future. And yes, she was the bride!

No other details were immediately available, but in her selfie her long red locks are curled, big-hair-style, in keeping with the down-home vibe of the show. Will Ferrell coproduces the comedy, which stars Danny McBride as a former pro baseball pitcher who returns to his hometown to teach P.E. in a blaze of no-glory-at-all.

Eastbound & Down‘s eight-episode final season premieres Sept. 29. And speaking of topsy-turvy careers…

Since leaving rehab last month after completing 90 days of court-ordered treatment, Lohan has also guest-hosted Chelsea Lately and sat down with Oprah Winfrey, whose OWN will be airing an eight-part docu-series about the actress as she works to stay on the straight and narrow.

Source: E Online